2009年8月29日星期六

他不值得。。

在整理东西时,
发现了些纸。。
有张,
是当初和明宏第二次约会时,9月22号时我写下那天的日记。。
我撕了。。
没看完就撕了。。
不愿再记得。
一张张撕碎了的纸。。
我知道回不去了。。
也不愿再回去。。
该放下的。。
我放了。。
该遗忘的。。
我也该遗忘了吧。。
撕碎了的纸碎。。
回不去完整的纸。。
破碎的心。。
回不去当初那完好的心。。
零碎的回忆。。
怎样也凑不回来。。
就让它淡去。。
不要在记得了。。
忘记吧。。
忘记你认识过他。。
忘记你爱过他。。
心就真的好过些吧。。
因为。。
他不值得。。
一点也不值得。。
不值得我在去牺牲任何东西。。
我宁愿为谁都值得。。
他就是不值得。。

2009年8月26日星期三

小说

老是给我看到没有结局的小说。。
印象深刻的是童非非的「我很想爱他」。。
失忆的女主角,
忘了那个为她而死,捐赠心脏给他的狄磊。。
爱上了他的双胞胎,狄杰。。
是影子吧?
忘记了。。
却又记不起。。
她承受不了。。
不懂爱的是谁。。
可狄杰又为她挡住场车祸。。
她看见血。。
她记起狄磊。。
可她忘了狄杰。。
她疯了。。
狄杰爱她。。
在他哥哥之前。。
狄杰恨她。。
她害死狄磊却忘了一切。。
可他还是保护她。。
像狄磊保护她却失去性命。。
他失去了双腿。。
没有血缘关系的哥哥。。
从小保护她。。
她没发现。。
他爱她。。
如此深。。
听到她车祸时。。
他聋了。。。
千浩。。
也是爱她。。
为了不让她自杀。。
他划伤了自己的脸。。
俊俏的脸。。
毁了容。。
四个男生。。
太惨了。。
看这本书。。
我哭了。。
唉。。。
可之后前几天。。
我看暧昧如糖。。
可是。。
看了一半我就丢在一旁。。
是厌恶吧?
知道是没结局。
可还是看完。。
变态的作者。。。
我晕!!!!
女主角爱上的,以为是自己同父异母的哥哥。。
她得了人格分裂。。
她不知道。。
白天的盛夏,纯净的。。
夜晚的熏,娇媚的。。
不同的灵魂。。
盛夏爱的是纪川凌。。
熏爱的是索罹曜。。
索罹曜。。
付出太多太多了。。
王子般高尚的他。。
甘愿混流氓。。
為了保护她。。
可他不懂。。
他给自己种下祸根。。
他连累了熏。。
她差点在他面前被强奸。。
可他换了条件。。
他吞下了整包白粉。。
那是代价?
盛夏不知道。。
盛夏眼里的索罹曜是干净的。。
可她还是发现了。。
是她害了索罹曜。。
她选择离开。。
用盛夏的身份离开。。
她躺在浴缸里,自杀了。
盛采儿,盛夏的妈妈伤心过渡。。
跌入火车轨道。。
也死了。。
到最后的最后。。
川凌才知道。。
他是领养的。。
他和盛夏没有血缘关系。。
如果如果!。。。
早就知道了的话。。
或许一切。。
还是好好的。。
变态的作者。。
变态!!!
写到酱。。
这样的结果。。
不是我所能负荷的。。。
这两本小说。。
让我对小说恐惧了。。
恐惧了!!
无奈。。
我选择安全点。。
看雪儿的小说。。
很搞笑的小说。。
还是比较喜欢雪儿。。
很有笑点。。
不再乱找书看了。。
头晕。。
比较喜欢雪儿。。^^
然后然后。。
我发现。。
我的小说全失踪了!!!
不懂我妹又弄到哪里。。
呜。。
快回来嘛。。
我的小说。。

2009年8月24日星期一

0824

想找副mj的拼图。。。
上网找来找去。。
就是没有。。
难过。。。
haiz..........
刚刚更新了
发现了些东西。。
知道了些我不知道的东西。。
今天早上去买家具。。
老爸狂买。。
= =
无言中。。
他把我的房间油成apple green。。。
晕倒。。。
继续无言。。。。。。
无言的一天。。。

2009年8月23日星期日

never should walked away

花费了整个下午听craig david的歌。。
忽然发现。。
有时候。。
英文歌很好听。。
至少。。
我前几天search张韶涵的歌。。
呃。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。
算了。。
无意听到一首歌。。
当然是craig david的。。。


Never Should Have Walked Away lyrics

I'd been sitting trying to figure out the reasons why
You were always goin out alone
I thought that you were meeting with some other guy
All those times you weren't at home
I was wrong but then i didn't understand
What you were tryna say to me
I thought that you were busy making other plans
And none of those included me
But then i always had to many insecurities
Why didn't i just decide to let it be?

[Chorus]
I never should've walked away
I should've been there for you babe
I know i've handled this all wrong
I swear, i didn't know
Things ain't never gonna be the same
And i know i'm the one to blame
I've gone and left you torn, baby
But i didn't know

I remember it so clear when i got the call
It was the hospital on the phone
They told me how you slipped and had a nasty fall
And would i come and take you home
Now that was bad enough but they had more to say
Felt like the words came out so slow
"I'm afraid she lost the baby but she'll be ok"
And i didn't even know
But now i see i should've been there from the start
Instead of letting it all fall apart

I never should've walked away
I should've been there for you babe
I know i've handled this all wrong
I swear, i didn't know
Things ain't never gonna be the same
And i know i'm the one to blame
I've gone and left you torn, baby
But i didn't know

I didn't know what was wrong
Girl i didn't know, no
I hope you know i never meant to hurt you girl
But i was way too blind to see
That you were only tryin to protect me girl
I wish you'd had more faith in me
Now i realise that i've let you down
And you had reasons to act that way
I thought that you were cheatin when you weren't around
That's why i had to walk away
But girl looking back
Inspite of all that you've been through
I'm asking is there still a chance for me and you

I never should've walked away
I should've been there for you babe
I know i've handled this all wrong
I swear, i didn't know
Things ain't never gonna be the same
And i know i'm the one to blame
I've gone and left you torn, baby
But i didn't know

I never should've walked away
I should've been there for you babe
I know i've handled this all wrong
I swear, i didn't know
Things ain't never gonna be the same
And i know i'm the one to blame
I've gone and left you torn, baby
But i didn't know



我不该走开。。
我不该离开。。
我不该怀疑。。
我不该乱想。。
但一切都来不及了。。




好重的遗憾。。
从来没发生在我身上。。
但我想写进我的小说。。
我不该走开。。。
never should walked away......
never.........

Don't love you no more



Don't Love You No More (I'm Sorry) lyrics


For all the years that I've known you baby
I can't figure out the reason why lately you've been acting so cold
(didn't you say)
If there's a problem we should work it out
So why you giving me the cold shoulder now
Like you don't even wanna talk to me girl
(tell me)
Ok I know I was late again
I made you mad and dinners thrown in (the bin)
But why are you making this thing drag on so long
(I wanna know)
I'm sick and tired of this silly game
(silly games)
Don't think that I'm the only one here to blame
It's not me here who's been going round slamming doors
That's when you turned and said to me
I don't care babe who's right or wrong
I just don't love you no more.


Rain outside my window pouring down
What now, your gone, my fault, I'm sorry
Feeling like a fool cause I let you down
Now it's, too late, to turn it around
I'm sorry for the tears I made you cry
I guess this time it really is goodbye
You made it clear when you said
I just don't love you no more


I know that I made a few mistakes
But never thought that things would turn out this way
Cause I'm missing something now that your gone
(I see it all so clearly)
Me at the door with you in a state
(in a state)
Giving my reasons but as you look away
I can see a tear roll down your face
That's when you turned and said to me
I don't care babe who's right or wrong
I just don't love you no more.


Rain outside my window pouring down
What now, your gone, my fault, I'm sorry
Feeling like a fool cause I let you down
Now it's, too late, to turn it around
I'm sorry for the tears I made you cry
I guess this time it really is goodbye
You made it clear when you said
I just don't love you no more


Don't say those words it's so hard
They turn my whole world upside down
Girl you caught me completely off guard
On the night you said to me
I just don't love you more.


Rain outside my window pouring down
What now, your gone, my fault, I'm sorry
Feeling like a fool cause I let you down
Now it's, too late, to turn it around
I'm sorry for the tears I made you cry
I guess this time it really is goodbye
You made it clear when you said
I just don't love you no more

Rain outside my window pouring down
What now, your gone, my fault, I'm sorry
Feeling like a fool cause I let you down
Now it's, too late, to turn it around
I'm sorry for the tears I made you cry
I guess this time it really is goodbye
You made it clear when you said
I just don't love you no more

我不爱你了。。
喜欢的。。
是它的旋律。。
朗朗上口的旋律。。

无意间`突然`一闪念

无意间,
听到craig david 的 walking away..
无意间,
喜欢上这首歌。。
突然,一闪念,就去听听craig david的歌。。
因为他的声线是我喜欢的。。
就无意间听到我都喜欢的歌。。
fill me in。。
轻快。。
unbelivable。。
蓝调。。
don't love you no more。。
很舒服的旋律。。
很多时候一个无意间。。
改变很多事情。。
无意间。。
我听到kiss the rain。。
让我喜欢上yiruma。。
无意间。。
我看见我是世上最孤独的人。。
我可怜起mj。。
一个闪念。。
坚持要妈妈买mj的dvd给我。。
让我惊奇他的传奇。。
突然听见第二天堂。。
喜欢上了。。
发现思韵也喜欢。。
一起迷JJ。。
无意间听到美人鱼。。
被他前面的海浪声吸引。。
喜欢上这首歌。。
无意间看到斗牛要不要。。
就喜欢这部戏。。
无意间向别人借来柯南。。
就喜欢上柯南。。
喜欢的东西。。
很多原来都是无意间。。
喜欢的感觉。。
一闪念。。
你就发现。。原来你喜欢上了。。。。。

Fill me in



Fill Me In lyrics

(All right)
(Come on)
(Can you fill me in)

I was checking this girl next door
When her parents went out
She phoned said hey boy, come on right around
So I knock at the door
You was standing with a bottle of red wine
Ready to pour
Dressed in long black Satin and Lace to the floor

So I went in
Then we sat down start kissing
Caressing
Told me about Jacuzzi
Sounded interesting
So we jumped right in
All calls diverted to answer phone
Please leave a message after the tone

You know me and her
Her Parents were kinda cool
But they ran a fine line between me and you
We were just doing things young people in love do
Parents trying to find out what we were up to

Saying why were you creeping round late last night
Why did I see two shadows moving in your bedroom light
Now you're dressed in black
When I left you were dressed in white
Can you fill me in
Calls diverted to answer phone
Red wine bottle half the contents gone
Midnight return Jacuzzi turned on
Can you fill me in

Whenever the coast was clear and she'd ask me to come out
I'd say hey girl, come on right around
So she knocked at the door
I was standing with the keys in my hand to the 4x4
Jumped in my ride
Checkin' in where nobody saw

The club we went in
We got down bounced bounced to the rhythm
Saw it was early morning
Thought we'd better be leaving
So I gave you my jacket for you to hold
Told you to wear it cause you felt cold

I mean me and her
Didn't mean to break the rules
I weren't trying to play your Mum and Dad for fools
We were just doing things young people in love do
Parents trying to find out what we were up to

Saying why can't you keep your promises no more
Say you'll be home by 12 come strolling in at 4
Out went the girls but leaving with the boy next door
Can you fill me in
Wearing a jacket who's property
Said you'd been queuing for a Taxi
But you left all your money on the TV
Can you fill me in

(Can you fill me in)

All they seem to do
Is be checking up on you
Baby

(Craig David)

Watching our every move
Think some day they might approve
Baby

Why were you creeping round late last night
Why did I see two shadows moving in your bedroom light
Now you're dressed in black
When I left you were dressed in white
Can you fill me in

(Can you fill me in)

Calls diverted to answer phone
Red wine bottle half the contents gone
Midnight return Jacuzzi turned on
Can you fill me in

(Can you fill me in)...

这首歌的意思。。
呵呵。。
现在的年轻情侣咯。。
哈哈。。
不错不错。。
旋律轻快。。
歌词也不错。。

walking away



Walking Away lyrics

I'm walking away from the troubles in my life
I'm walking away oh to find a better day
I'm walking away from the troubles in my life
I'm walking away oh to find a better day
I'm walking away

sometimes some people get me wrong
when it's something I've said or done
sometimes you feel there is no fun
that's why you turn and run
but now I truly realise
some people don't wanna compromise
well I saw them with my own eyes spreading those lies
and well I don't wanna live a lie, too many sleepless nights
not mentioning the fights, I'm sorry to say lady

I'm walking away from the troubles in my life
I'm walking away oh to find a better day
I'm walking away from the troubles in my life
I'm walking away oh to find a better day
I'm walking away

Well I'm so tired baby
things you say you're driving me away
whispers in the powder room baby
don't listen to the games they play
girl I thought you'd realise
I'm not like them other guys
coz I saw them with my own eyes
you should've been more wise
and well I don't wanna live a lie, too many sleepless nights
not mentioning the fights, I'm sorry to say lady

I'm walking away from the troubles in my life
I'm walking away oh to find a better day
I'm walking away from the troubles in my life
I'm walking away oh to find a better day
I'm walking away


唱出现实生活吧。。
不错的一首歌。。

history

昨天晚上。。
看了场演唱会。。
精彩绝伦。。
history world tour。。。
history。。
过去了的。。
那场mj唱很多歌。。
比那个dangerous tour还精彩。。
真的。。
我很喜欢mj。。。
前天自己出钱买了moonwalker。。
正版的。。
才发现。。
smooth criminal 原来还有故事的。。
而且。。
还超过半小时的。。
那个真的很精彩。。
看到passion。。
RM30。。
却不够钱买。。
不过。。
真的很贵下。。
不过本书。。
不过。。
想了很久。。
打算叫别人帮我买。。。
昨天的history tour最后一首我很喜欢。。
原来那首history我下了没曾完整听过。。
因为我只喜欢他的chorus。。



HIStory
He got kicked in the back
He say that he needed that
He hot willed in the face
Keep daring to motivate
He say one day you will see
His place in world history
He dares to be recognized
The fires deep in his eyes

How many victims must there be
Slaughtered in vain across the land
And how many struggles must there be
Before we choose to live the prophet's plan
Everybody sing...

Every day create your history
Every path you take you're leaving your legacy
Every soldier dies in his glory
Every legend tells of conquest and liberty

Don't let no one get you down
Keep movin' on higher ground
Keep flying until
You are the king of the hill
No force of nature can break
Your will to self motivate
She say this face that you see
Is destined for history

How many people have to cry
The song of pain and grief across the land
And how many children have to die
Before we stand to lend a healing hand
Everybody sing...

Every day create your history
Every path you take you're leaving your legacy
Every soldier dies in his glory
Every legend tells of conquest and liberty
Every day create your history
Every page you turn you're writing your legacy
Every hero dreams of chivalry
Every child should sing together in harmony

All nations sing
Let's harmonize all around the world

How many victims must there be
Slaughtered in vain across the land
And how many children must we see
Before we learn to live as brothers
And leave one family oh...

Every day create your history
Every path you take you're leaving your legacy
Every soldier dies in his glory
Every legend tells of conquest and liberty
Every day create your history
Every page you turn you're writing your legacy
Every hero dreams of chivalry
Every child should sing together in harmony

A soldier dies
A mother cries
The promised child shines in a baby's eyes
All nations sing
Let's harmonize all around the world

2009年8月22日星期六

隐藏

每个人。。
都很会保护自己。。
说我多愁善感,
不如说我是乐天派。。
唯有在爱情。。
我想的比较多。。
剩下的时间。。
我多在微笑中渡过。。
是开心微笑吗?
那么,有时笑后,
却发现,
我的笑容是为了别人笑容而绽开。。
因为我找不到原因,开心。。
上礼拜,无意发现的,
我的笑容,是顺其自然的找笑点笑了起来,
可我却感受不了快乐。。
一丝也没有。。
心里在彷徨不安焦虑。。
mayuki说我很多cloud。。
驱赶不了。。
可回到家。。
妹妹不开心,
可我在讲笑话,
逗每个人笑。。
我在笑,
可那刻。。
我彻底的僵着了。。
我回到房间。。
乌云罩着我。。
我找不到原因开心。。
没人发现我的不寻常。。
我的笑容。。
好廉价。。
是习惯隐藏了吧。。
我是harmless的。。
从不笑里藏刀。。
微笑只为别人。。
可发现。。
这样的我。。
好容易。。
好容易。。
让人误会。。。。。。
害怕别人误会我的眼神。。
那很沉重。。
害怕别人误会我不理我。。
那很累。。
是错觉还是焦虑?
我感觉到。。
那么一丝。。
在他眼里。。
我感觉到。。
累了。。
保护自己的方式。。
不过也不想伤害任何任何的人。。
可为何。。
我会那么不安?
我不过。。
是习惯了隐藏自己的脆弱。。。

0822

今天的我。。
很心凉下。。。
发生了些事。。
哈哈。。
不过,就不拿出来讲了。。
避免不相关人士又跳出来。。
哈哈。。
不过我又不安了。。
mayuki病了。。
发烧超过39℃。。
干嘛老是让我没完没了的担心。。。
朋友一个个生病。。
叫那些没病的。。
一个两个不戴口罩。。
哼。。
但希望mayuki早日康复!!!

2009年8月14日星期五

0813

心情不好的我。。
睡啊睡啊睡。。
可被暴风雨吵醒了。。
连面。。
吃进嘴里。。
也无味。。
静静的,
开起电脑。。
就只想逃离。。

2009年8月10日星期一

无重力

无重力
演唱:潘玮柏

LRC制作:酷我歌词组 零度耀火

画面不动了 情歌不唱了
爱情的重播键明明一直按着
什么原因 让时间停了
在伤心的镜头 被停格

电梯不动了 爱也停止了
可是坠落的感觉怎么还在呢
热闹的街道还在狂欢着
为何我却孤单漂浮着

无重力腾空 慢慢跌入无尽的黑洞
没知觉的伤痛 飘荡的心却摔得更重

我爱你 你爱我 是不是还不够
我不懂 为什么 付出的全落空
无重力 爱坠落 粉身碎骨的我
不受控制的手 还能抓住什么

我爱你 你爱我 算不算 是承诺
全世界 都沉默 没声音的嘶吼
无重力 爱坠落 最缓慢的折磨
只剩遍体鳞伤的我 撑到最后

画面不动了 情歌不唱了
爱情的重播键明明一直按着
什么原因 让时间停了
在伤心的镜头 被停格

电梯不动了 爱也停止了
可是坠落的感觉怎么还在呢
热闹的街道还在狂欢着
为何我却孤单漂浮着

无重力腾空 慢慢跌入无尽的黑洞
没知觉的伤痛
飘荡在半空的心越挣扎却摔得更重

我爱你 你爱我 是不是还不够
我不懂 为什么 付出的全落空
无重力 爱坠落 粉身碎骨的我
不受控制的手 还能抓住什么

我爱你 你爱我 算不算 是承诺
全世界 都沉默 没声音的嘶吼
无重力 爱坠落 最缓慢的折磨
只剩遍体鳞伤的我 撑到最后

(I love you)

我爱你 你爱我 是不是还不够
我不懂 为什么 付出的全落空
无重力 爱坠落 粉身碎骨的我
不受控制的手 还能抓住什么

我爱你 你爱我 算不算 是承诺
全世界 都沉默 没声音的嘶吼
无重力 爱坠落 最缓慢的折磨
只剩遍体鳞伤的我 撑到 最后



很悲的一首歌。。
唱到心里去了。。
写词的人写得很悲。。
没一句。。
都能感动人。。
我和培珊都很喜欢。。
我爱你你爱我。。
是不是还不够?
如果这样也不够。。
那么。。
爱还剩什么?
爱。
无重力。。
拥有时,
失去时。。
都抓不住。。
当感情走到这样时。。
那么。。
爱到底是什么了?
是习惯?
戒不掉的习惯?
是回忆?
抹不灭的回忆?
无重力。。。
无重力。。。。
衡量不到。。
对你的爱。。。